Well the quick responses was unexpected. I expected the majority of responses to be harsher and more critical, also a little snickering and skill bashing. I have reconsidered and won't quit. I was a little ashamed of how bad I was doing, not uberbad - I got top healer about 5 times (out of about 40+ matches), over 300k heals about 10 times which is decent - but it still seemed like no matter how good I or my teammates did the imps just hit harder and healed more efficiently. And in general chat it seemed like I wasn't the only one who thought the odds seemed out of our favor for the most part.
Also, I'm playing on the Bastion - the only PVP server on the West Coast. There is still SOOO much to learn but I don't know where to start. I'm scouring the forums for quickslot setups, combat tips, skill rotations, alacrity/critical balance (I'm playing Sage healer). I'm watching youtube vids to better understand how to play objectives and focus on playing my role properly but I'm not finding any of it fast enough.
I am in a guild and when I do get to pvp with them we win about 65-70% of the time. They're good peeps but the rage is there as well. The $40 was for a 2400 cc pack and then 60 days sub. I am currently under-geared but it's hard to imagine getting full Obroan at the rate we are stacking the comms on the Rep side. Imps gathering comms at 3x the rate we are = imps upgrading faster and being able to afford more/better equipment --> more Republic losses. As far as going on imp side - never going to happen. Other server, no. I RP the jedi ideals and can't stand representing the evil of the empire.
I may have been unfair in my assessment of the storyline, its decent but so much grinding on killing the same mobs. Datacron hunting is pretty fun and worth it for the perma stat boosts, but gets old after a while, though the backstory of the Old Republic is unmatched in any other mmo or fictional universe for that matter. I played KOTOR when it first came out and will never forget that journey. Also, hearing that Revan dies after we free him was very depressing. Legacy objectives keep me busy when I'm bored, but the rewards and payout isn't worth the time and effort after a while.
But like I said originally: PVP is the endgame. Currently on the Bastion, the Imps are gaining comms at a much faster pace than the republic and as long as that goes on, they have the edge in pubs for the majority of the matches. I'll bounce back into it but I'm not going to fool myself about what I'm jumping into - Better equipped and more coordinated imps and undergeared, uncooperative, demoralized Repubs in the majority of pub matches. I checked our leaderboards and noticed Double Bubbles at the top (followed by 4 imps =[ ), but his presence alludes me and I never see any of the top players in pubs. Perhaps they mob in guilds and only pvp in select groups and if that's the case than they're smarter and more effective no doubt. But as long as us noobs are left to the pub WZs on our own, it's a slaughterhouse in there.