Actually, let me blow your mind for a moment. That was Churb. When I post I put 'Cayl" under it. Churb /always/ says that. When I tell him to go do something and make a big deal about it "It's just a video game calm down" when I complain that I live in his shadow because he's too good for me to overcome because no matter what I do, no matter what I accomplish, he can double it in a blink of his eye without having to try. I work my *** off trying to impress him to maybe get on his level at least, and when he says something like "I forgot a video game is serious" It really bothers me, because it's further proof that I will never amount to anything other than 'churb's pocket healer' I'll never be the best healer on the server or someone who gets shout out on the forums because I'm good. No. I sit in the shadows and smile as all these other people get praised and the only thing keeping me going is the small short whispers I get from people who enjoy me and appreciate my healing telling me I'm the best to them. Yes, it's a video game. Yes, it's not going to kill me if nothing ever happens. But it's the video game /I/ play. The game I spend all day playing, putting in hard hours to get this stupid gear that it doesn't even matter because people rip right through it and shove me in the dirt right when I get out of stealth. But I don't mind. I accept it because it only means that I'm a threat to them and they can't have me alive. I'm not the best... but I'm the best I can be at this moment.
-Cayl